Friday, 15 March 2013

Why Can't I Do This?

I’ve been struggling a lot lately. Part of it is due to the issues that became overwhelming in January and part of it is due to me having too many ideas. It’s got to the point where so many of my projects are crowding in on me, screaming ‘work on me! Work on me!” that I’m just paralysed. I don’t know which way to turn, where to go.

Add in the fact that I’m starting to question who I really am and you’ve got the recipe for a serious disaster. I’m trying to figure out who I am, what I want to do with myself, what my dreams are. All the while I’m trying to find a job and get in shape. Like I said, disaster.

At the best of times my mind is constantly going. Now though it’s just overwhelming. Maybe it will change soon, by my own hand or by the actions of someone else. Who knows? I certainly don’t.